As a psychologist and digital media specialist, I’ve watched countless players chase wins that never bring peace. In this deeply personal piece, I reflect on the emotional toll behind the thrill of online games like baccarat—where every bet feels like a prayer, and every win whispers a question: 'Is this really me?' Through stories from real players and psychological insights, I explore how we confuse momentum with meaning, and why true satisfaction lies not in the jackpot—but in self-awareness.